How i love those moments (both short and agonizingly long...depending on how quick you fall asleep) when it's just you left alone with your thoughts.
This is as much a very sarcastic statement as it is completely honestly true statement. Basically because i think once you have those moments of sudden clarity, you truly discover things about yourself. Things that can explain so much, but yet also so little. Things that make you re-evaluate life or situations.
For me, tonight, it was that i've never fully let anyone in. I build walls. Keep people at a distance. Every situation, every relationship it's always the same. But yet when i make a move towards taking them down, something happens and theyre built back up; sometimes even higher or thicker.
As terribly depressing as that is to realize, that is the part i appreciate about these little pre-sleep self-reflecting moments: they show you what needs to be changed. Fixed. Altered.
Now to bed for me. #Ontheroadtohappiness
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